Being patient is a lot easier than people may think it is. Most of the time it is simply mind over matter. There were so many times in my life where I would refuse to be patient, and the results would be worse than if I had just been patient. It was because I had no faith in God. I believed he existed, but I had no trust that he would provide what I needed. In most cases of my life, it seemed as if when he did bless me, it was usually last minute and that just wasn’t good enough for me. I felt waiting for God was not worth the stress of worrying, so I would go out and do what I “thought” I had to do.
Every single time I made a decision due to being impatient with God, my results ended up on the wrong end of life’s stick. In all my situations where I did not have patience with God, it would have been better for me not to do anything than to be impatient in the first place. That was because God had a greater plan and purpose that I did not see. Lack of patience is why prostitutes are prostituting, and drug dealers are selling drugs if they had patients and faith in God do you think they’d be on the streets doing what most of them know is the worst case scenario? I don’t believe so.
Now, maybe some of them would still choose to be in the streets, but I think the majority would just trust in God. When I’m out on the streets ministering, I see how the prostitutes’ souls seem broken, and the drug dealers seem restless. In every city, I visit it is usually the same thing. At this point, I can easily assume what their occupation is off of the demeanor for their soul in most cases, and it’s clear every time that they don’t want to be there they just believed that they have to. This ignorance is because of lack of patience in God. I am also guilty of it. There have been so many times I prayed and tried to have faith, but when I felt it didn’t come at the time I felt it was supposed to come, all of my faith was out the door, and I was back to depending on me. Unfortunately depending on me only put me in a deeper ditch where I had no choice but to be patient and wait on God to pull me out. All that time I spent not being patient, and I didn’t realize I was making things worse and wasting my time.
The dangerous situations that I put myself in because of my lack of patience were never a part of god’s plan. If I had stepped aside and let God handle my issues it would have been smooth for me from the beginning, but because I had no patience or real faith in God I fell short countless times. I finally got the picture when my impatience landed me on Rickers Island and facing a year in jail. I was broken down to my socks and had no doors to go through. I HAD to wait on God to make one for me. From that day forward I promised God, I would surrender and submit my life to him. I was weak, and I was powerless, and now I had no choice but to trust in the all-powerful.
Now that I look back on my past I realize all the bad things I had done to myself and all the time I wasted. Sometimes I wish I could rewind time and know then what I know now. Nonetheless, God is so much of a redeemer that I lack or need of nothing but him if anything I got a lot more than I honestly deserve. These blessings were all because I finally decided to be patient and trust in God and it was the best decision I have ever made.
Every single plan that I set out for me was what I wanted, but it usually was not the best for me. When I began to be patient with God and trust in him, he gave me the best every time. There is not one blessing God has given me that was not top of the line. So now I realize all this time, all he wanted to do was give me the best. He wanted me to trust in him and be patient with him because he had the best for me. I look at it like a husband blindfolding his wife to surprise her with a gift, a gift he knows she will love and will be the best fit for her. That’s how God works in most cases; God puts us on a need to know basis. What we need to know we will know, but what is not necessary for us to know is just not required for us to know.
Regardless whatever God is doing is only to bless us and never to hurt us or send us to our demise. That is why it is so important to trust in him because he is only going to bless us with the best in every situation we give to him. This concept makes me want to give all of my situations to God. Knowing that if I trust in him, he will provide me with the best results means my life can be the best. Even with the vicious attacks of the enemy, God will turn it around and give me the best. I will get the best every single time. This understanding means I can’t lose with God. I can lose trusting in myself, but I cannot and will not lose when trusting and being patient with the father.
Thank You, Lord, for the blessing that you have turned my journey into, even in the midst of all of my sins and lack of faith and trust in you. Amen Bevelyn
Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. Be sober, be vigilant; because[a] your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. 1 Peter 5:6-8 NKJV
Therefore be patient, brethren, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, waiting patiently for it until it receives the early and latter rain. You also be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand. James 5:8 NKJV