Through The Night

I decided to surrender my life to God on a new level. I chose to step out in faith and do something I believe He has called me to do. However, this year has been one of the hardest years of my life. I faced so many obstacles, struggling mentally and emotionally more than ever before. Going through this challenging season and accepting His call has put me on satan’s chopping block.

I can sense what Job went through. As the enemy has been throwing darts, torpedoes, and massive bombs on my life, I know better than to blame God for it. I have not and will not curse His name. I stand by the Father. It’s not easy by a long shot, but through this journey, my faith is growing so much. I’m reaping so many blessings in the spirit. Prayers I prayed a long time ago, prayers I’ve even forgotten are being answered. However, in the physical realm, it seems as if I’m a total failure.

If I did not know God, if I did not know that all things work for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose, I would have believed this lie. But for the grace of God, what I’ve been through would get anyone to lose their mind and renounce their faith. I wanted to give up on the mission and tried to throw in the towel so many times. Never in my mind though, did I want to turn off my faith and turn my eyes away from Jesus. I cried and cried and asked the Holy Spirit for guidance and peace on many nights. He gave that to me, and it has been what has kept me this far.

Through all these challenges, I have drawn closer to God in a whole new way. Any religiosity that makes the word of God of none effect is gone. I am in such a place of peace when it comes to my relationship with the Father. It’s no longer about my faith being a daily practice to keep God happy, and it is no longer about doing things to fit in the image of what a Christian is supposed to be according to the world. In this season, I can honestly say that I know where came from, and I know where I’m going. I have surrendered all of the desires of my will, and I have dedicated my life to serving God as He graces me to do so. Through it all, He’s been my provider, and He’s made miracles happen in my life. So as I continue to take on this journey, dedicating myself to serving Him, I’m learning to align my thoughts with His thoughts and my plans with His plans.

For every challenge and every tribulation, I’m confident that I will see victory in the end. Why? He who started a good work in me will complete it until the day of Christ. So in the meantime, I will continue to minister the gospel of Jesus Christ. I will continue to abide in Him. No matter the circumstances, I know, in this season, that I genuinely love my God for who He is. This journey has not been in vain. It’s helped yield the peaceful fruit of righteousness in my life: I’m rooted and grounded in Him, I’m stronger, wiser, and ready for what is to come.